I really try to hold it all back, walk around with a smile. Except, the pain inside just keeps coming back. See that’s the thing about pain, it demands to be felt. I come home, and it starts all over again. Seeing the notes, the stuffed animals, the clothes, pictures, ect. All those memories I locked away for the day flutter through my head and tears flood down my cheeks. I’m giving you what you want, that space you say is important. It just keeps breaking my heart.

How could someone be so evil and not even think that kissing my ex boyfriend of over a year, and not even a week of being broken up, wouldn’t hurt me. And then laugh at me cause you are going to keep doing it. What. A. Bitch. Honestly, you are so low, and have no feelings. I HATE GIRLS OMFG

I can’t just wake up and be okay. I can’t just go to school and be okay. I can’t just NOT think of you. Ya, it wasnt fourteen months of pure bliss, but no relationship is.. but I love you, and I truly was happy..

:’(

You were everything to me, all I ever thought of. I can’t imagine days without you, or even your family. I still love you..

Does anyone?

Know where the video of the boyfriend and girlfriend who took all those short videos together and made it one, is? Please I’d love to see it, i lost it and havent finished it yet.